I've mulled it over and thinking towards Thursday, my mind is clear and that in terms of important lifetime decisions, voting in the EU Referendum will not be one of them, I've spent a large proportion of my life around politics, the Conservative Party and to be honest i don't think i've ever eagerly awaited the EU Referendum, but last night i viewed a debate from 1975, pretty much what is being said today was said back then, except today their seems to be more nastiness from the Remain and Leave camps.
I'm quite a Euro Sceptic, in fact i take after a man I greatly admire in Milton Friedman who was sceptical of government as a whole, which i think i am too.
I think my thoughts come from the fact that after 1997, we don't have ladies or gentleman in the House of Commons, Blair's regime seems to have brought this fast food, loutish type of Member of Parliament, i only admire a handful of MP's today, Graham Stuart for Beverley & Holderness, my daughter Gretchen loves him, David Davis from Haltemprice & Howden, Stuart Andrew in Pudsey.
Although i have got to know quite a number of MPs over the years i can't help but think since we were put on a diet of reality tv, loutish MPs who don't respect one another and more recently the free press hacking dead kids phones to make a quick buck, that our democracy has been eroded in the name of ratings and what is cool.
50 years ago MPs used to debate on the TV and discuss matters of the day, they generally spoke with posh accents, smoked pipes and the discussion was very bland, even channel 4 used to show educational programming.
You can see the type of behaviour that we have in the house of commons, we have MPs both men and women that would be better on a Council Estate with their debating skills. Not that all Council Estates are bad mind you.
Fast forward to more recent times, last week a lady who was an MP was brutally murdered in the street in her constituency, now she was young and probably hadn't banked on dying anytime soon, so how can the people and campaign management from the Remain campaign actually use her death to further their cause? William Straw son of Jack Straw the famed Labour MP from Blair's time is in charge of the Remain Campaign, did he have talks with Mrs Cox about her dying and what her wishes were? I don't think so.
Then to this morning, some MPs who intend to vote Leave on Thursday have been sent threatening emails about that if they don't change their vote, it will be hard for them to become MPs again.
This isn't democracy, it's people who are clearly more unemployable than the actual people who are unemployed throwing their weight or their fantasy that they have some sort of power in the world, this is why i refuse to vote in the EU Referendum on Thursday.
